I MUST get this out because it's not healthy anymore :( I am torn here
I am in my early 50's but still look good. I have been divorced for years, never remarried, and have been dating. And, now, I believe I know the reason why I wasn't interested in remarrying or getting very serious about a man. My older sister has three kids, all grown adults now. The youngest (let's call him "M" for short) grew up to be extremely handsome, and has always turned me on since he was 19. I was sickened to have felt this way, knowing that's my nephew who I have had a relationship with all his life. I went to a psychiatrist/psychologist about this, and it's very common, so I was greatly relieved. She explained why, which is a long story but I felt like it was ok as long as I don't act on it (NOT EASY) Especially when I found that he stole my panties and rummaged through my underwear drawer when he was watching my cats. He was ONLY supposed to feed my cats, not masturbate on his Aunts bed. I was upset at first, then became EXTREMELY TURNED ON. He was 17 at the time so it was imprinted in my head, then he turned 19 and was beautiful, dating gorgeous girls, making great money running a family business. I figured he long ago forgot about me :/ .......
14 years later, he's still so hot, and I am still masturbating to him and thinking about him to orgasm while having sex with my boyfriends through the years. I had tried to flirt with my nephew "M" through the years, even making excuses to get on my knees close to his cock or to not wear panties so he can admire my rather large butt, which I know he LOVES. I felt pathetic because he looked like he wasn't interested. BOY, WAS I WRONG!!! HERE IS THE KICKER, I researched some confession sites and found him confessing about his love and lust for me!! For his favorite Aunt!! I was elated, he was just scared to have acted on feelings for me. He said so many amazing things that most men would never have said, some of the most original, sweetest things a woman could desire to hear From her Lover. WHAT DO I DO?! I have NO CLUE how to approach this. Should I call him? Tell him that I know? I have been like a little girl, excited for Disneyworld. I am beyond horny.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated. I love him, he loves me but I believe this is just lust. We will see after sex, if we ever do. I have seen him with no underwear and in basketball shorts. I could see the outline, plus I walked in on him as he was getting dried off from a shower. His cock is beautiful, perfect size for me. 7 inches, and it is an appealing, good looking, suckable and fuckable cock. MY NEPHEW!! BLOOD RELATION, MY SISTERS SON!! I'm angry at myself but what if God put us in eachothers lives because we were married in a former life. We love each other and he wants to visit me out west and he's in Florida. I think I have to invite him to stay with me, and just go for it, I know he wants it just as much. I want him to call me Aunt or the French Aunt. Judith loves you, M. I can't wait to suck on that beautiful cock. I want to spend a full 24 hours in bed, M. Your Aunt needs to be taken care of.
Love you M!!! I'm sure he will see this. This is how we have been corresponding about our feeling for each other because we are too embarrassed but now I'm calling him out. Wish me luck.
Love, Aunt J
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